beneath it all. . .

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...

salaam!

it's been ages since i last wrote on my blog!

well, my result for the first semester was very frustrating...letting down the hope of your loved ones was really breaking me to pieces...

when i look at the result all by myself, i didn't feel anything yet..... but the hardest part is yet to come : telling my parents the awful truth that i didn't get quite a good result...

the feeling this time around was a bit different as the result is quite crucial for the courses that i'm going to take, but things doesn't come out the way i wanted it to be...

at first, i called abah...

my tears already flowing down even before i got to speak to him, and i was too sad at that moment...its like the world has gone against me...

but abah as usual was very relaxed and even questioned me about the necessities of crying at that particular moment... he seems not to care about the result at all, just telling me to calm and relax.......

and surprisingly, only a single phone call is needed for me to be calm and relax... because i know in the end of the day, my family will be the one to catch me every single time i fall...

no matter how bad the fall is, no matter how far i have fall into, there will always be somebody who will help me, making it through the tough days ahead...

because i know they are the one who accepts me no matter what...

with this opportunity also, i would like to thank the persons beside my family members who help me through that day, my beloved roommates who consoles me in the time of my need...and pai as well, thanks guys...

now i have thousands of opportunity lies in front me, i just have to work a bit harder for this new semester so that i won't be missing anything!

~ALLAH GIVES ME THE TEST BECAUSE HE KNOWS I CAN HANDLE IT WELL, AND THERE'S DEFINITELY SOMETHING GOOD COMING IN THE FUTURE...IT'S JUST THAT I CAN'T SEE IT RIGHT NOW...~

INSYAALLAH, i'm going to try my very best to get what i want, because of HIM!

-519N1N9 0FF-

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

salaam....

there's been a lot of things going on:

~mr taufiQ's conv0 [ congrats bro! ]

~muet.... [ r u ready? insyaALLAH! :) ]

~semester 2 coming up!!!

+ a few things that is quite confidential that i can't mention here [ sorry! ]

when i think back about all the stuff that has happens [regarding how big or small it is ], i should always be grateful with whatever i'm having right now...

i know that what i'm having right now maybe not as good as what other people are having but knowing that you have the persons that will always have your back no matter what is the most important thing in the whole wide world!

they maybe have some flaws here & there, but we should embrace people with what they are...especially our loved ones, because no matter how bad they are acting to you, in the end they are still your blood...

okay, enough with the emotional part..., now its time for me to get ready for a new semester that surely will bring a lot more surprises, challenges, & insyaALLAH successes along the way!

2 all my loved ones [ my dearly family, relatives & loyal friends ],

thanks for sticking with me throughout the journey,

even though we are far apart & rarely get the chance to meet up,

it doesn't mean you are not in my heart....

wish me luck for my muet & exam results!

519n1n9 0ff... :]

update...

salam....

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

it has been ages since the last time i updating my blog[ i guess... ],

but anyway anyhow i've just fininshed my finals for the 1st sem...

YA ALLAH, the Q was very tough, [ m3 especially] but i think i've given my best

& i pray hard that INSYAALLAH i'll get a good [flying colour ] result,

AMIIINNN...

okay enough about the exams detail, now its time 2 prepare 4 my muet!

hahahahaha...muet is just around the corner and in fact i already finished the speaking test & i think that also went well.... so now i have to prepare for listening, reading and writing test [ nov 7 ], and hopefully get a band 6 [ a very, very high hope ],

wish me luck & pray for my success people...

before i end the entry for this time, i just want to say a lot of thanks to my family [ my parents especially] who have given me a tremendeous courage and support throughout the exam period...

ONLY ALLAH CAN REPAY ALL OF YOUR KINDNESS....

~ in love with them indefinitely ~

[ can't help but also to love: -lady gaga~paparazzi, -kings of leon~use somebody ]

signing off,

WASSALAM.

glad 2 be back!

salaam...
hallo people. it's really great 2 be back in my h0me.
near to kl, i miss everybody especially my family!!!

gosh, the feeling at home is really different, the comfort, security....only god knows.
i've been busy lately, thank god there's not much work from college so resting my body has been the main agenda [if you know what i mean, :) ]

i don't know why i didn't straight away write in blog when i got home...probably overwhelmed by the happiness of being home i guess....
oh yes, college life is HECTIC, but strangely i quite liking the hype where we have to rush to go to classes, doing experiment like every single week, & the much "anticipated" outdoor activities!
here in my college, even the outdoor activities has been decided 4 us....so we have accept it....but i think i'm quite lucky coz i got the ROWING CLUB people...
it's better than sewing, definitely...

so basically i've already spent a week at home, so we'll see what's going to happen next...

to all my friends, be happy in whatever you are doing.....

{i'm so crazy over lady gaga's~paparazzi, don't know why... :) }

selangor VS kelantan

assalamualaikum...

for this entry, i would like to share my experience watching the FA cup final.

~the game is coincidently played by the PR states
Kelantan:pas, Selangor:pkr
hahaha...i don't really care about this stuff, but there are several IRRESPONSIBLE
supporter who brings the flag of the political party[ so lame], so i can't help but
noticing this situation

~the game also brought in political leaders of different ideologies at the same time.
the newly appointed minister of youth & sport[ i don't remember his name exactly,
sorry ], khairy jamaluddin [ he only arrives during the half-time ], & anwar
anwar ibrahim was there too, he even sits near the minister[ the one he debates on
national tv ], what a little world after all, huh?
moral of the story, i think you guys are smart enough to know, right?

~so let's get back to the game!
both team showed a tremendous effort of a high fighting spirit in the game, but i can't
help but feel a little bit off about the referee because eventhough i support the
Selangor team, the ref seems a little harder on the Kelantan team.
i don't know, maybe it's just my feelings i guess. but alhamdulillah, Selangor won it in the end.

the pictures that i uploaded here consists a bit during the game & also after game party in shah alam as well...

that's all folks,
WASSALAM....

i'm g0ing away...

devastated, sad, ashamed is among the emotion that i felt when i realize that i didn't get the university offer.....

maybe, i hang my hope t00 high in the sky i guess....i even questioned myself:
CAN I SURVIVE THE MATRICULATION?
WHAT IF I FAIL?
WHAT IF CAN'T GET A GOOD RESULT?
HOW AM I GOING TO CONTINUE MY STUDIES IF EVERYTHING WENT WRONG?
(P/S: i get a matriculation offer in changlun, kedah )

all this (-)ve thoughts streaming into my mind, but suddenly i was stunned!

i reminded myself that i should take things (+)vely, because i know that ALLAH will not give His slave things that they can't handle.
& i believe that everything happen for a reason, a reason that only ALLAH knows.
His my creator, thus He knows what is the best for His slave.
Maybe, He wants me to take this as a challenge, to enlighten my spirit to pursue my greatest dream........

i also doesn't have to make a choice whether to go to university or matriculation, like most of my friends who have to decide which path they want to take.
i will not have to make the hard decision that they have to make,
definitely, this event has its own HIKMAH.......

HOPEFULLY, I WILL GET TO ACHIEVE MY AMBITION, TO BECOME A HUMBLE SERVANT OF ALLAH THAT CAN MAKE USE FULL OF MY POTENTIAL TO HELP PEOPLE,
INSYAALLAH...

env1ousness....

SALAM.........

envy?

memang aku cemburukan org lain...

mereka semua dapat apa yg mereka idamkan,

dari keputusan peperiksaan yg cemerlang,

hingga kepada keluarga yg punyai harta yg melimpah ruah,

sentiasa bersenang-senang & bersuka-sukaan,

sentiasa ada teman-teman di sisi.....

cemburu?

tidak lain & tidak bukan,

memang kerja setan!

Dan aku tahu,

ramai yg telah tumpas

dan aku tidak mahu jatuh dalam jeratnya...

aku pernah bertanya seorang sahabat yg telah lama aku kenali,

hidupnya hampir ku gambarkan dengan satu perkataan;

PERFECT!

tapi aku selalu lupa,

bahawa manusia itu tak pernah sempurna.

hidupnya juga penuh liku,

dan aku merasa dia dan aku tiada beza,

membuatkan rasa cemburuku ini sia-sia....

use you envy for something positive; let say for the sake of our studies.

but not until you make somebody falls apart!

the most important thing is: BE GRATEFUL & THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE, YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU ARE GONNA NEED THEM

treat everybody nicely, 'cause they might be the one who helps you in the future....