~ I N S P I R A T I O N ~

ASSALAMUALAIKUM.

today's entry revolves around my perspectives on somebody that i'm in debt forever, because of many things he gave me, which i'll treasure for the rest of my life...

MAJID BIN MAAROF.

He is nobody to many people, but to me, he's one of the man i've looked up to during my early years of childhood. well, living with him for quite number of years was clearly the biggest influence but the dedication he put in everything he does, the way he treats people earns him respects of those around him but never once gamble his principle on life. he may not have all the money in the world. the hardship have taught him on becoming a better person and how he tried his best to make us understand better of this complicated little world we live in.

WHO is this Majid? he is my beloved grandpa which already passed away but living a legacy of spirited souls behind him to make us realize that even though life falls hard on you, even there are dark clouds in front of you coming, try hard to fight the odds and try hard to find the lights.

He taught me and the rests of our family members. and the most important thing is : to have faith in ALLAH in both good and bad times...

ATUK, i owe you a big favour of this lessons you gave me and only ALLAH can repay your kindness...

-ALFATIHAH-

beneath it all. . .

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...

salaam!

it's been ages since i last wrote on my blog!

well, my result for the first semester was very frustrating...letting down the hope of your loved ones was really breaking me to pieces...

when i look at the result all by myself, i didn't feel anything yet..... but the hardest part is yet to come : telling my parents the awful truth that i didn't get quite a good result...

the feeling this time around was a bit different as the result is quite crucial for the courses that i'm going to take, but things doesn't come out the way i wanted it to be...

at first, i called abah...

my tears already flowing down even before i got to speak to him, and i was too sad at that moment...its like the world has gone against me...

but abah as usual was very relaxed and even questioned me about the necessities of crying at that particular moment... he seems not to care about the result at all, just telling me to calm and relax.......

and surprisingly, only a single phone call is needed for me to be calm and relax... because i know in the end of the day, my family will be the one to catch me every single time i fall...

no matter how bad the fall is, no matter how far i have fall into, there will always be somebody who will help me, making it through the tough days ahead...

because i know they are the one who accepts me no matter what...

with this opportunity also, i would like to thank the persons beside my family members who help me through that day, my beloved roommates who consoles me in the time of my need...and pai as well, thanks guys...

now i have thousands of opportunity lies in front me, i just have to work a bit harder for this new semester so that i won't be missing anything!

~ALLAH GIVES ME THE TEST BECAUSE HE KNOWS I CAN HANDLE IT WELL, AND THERE'S DEFINITELY SOMETHING GOOD COMING IN THE FUTURE...IT'S JUST THAT I CAN'T SEE IT RIGHT NOW...~

INSYAALLAH, i'm going to try my very best to get what i want, because of HIM!

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i'm g0ing away...

devastated, sad, ashamed is among the emotion that i felt when i realize that i didn't get the university offer.....

maybe, i hang my hope t00 high in the sky i guess....i even questioned myself:
CAN I SURVIVE THE MATRICULATION?
WHAT IF I FAIL?
WHAT IF CAN'T GET A GOOD RESULT?
HOW AM I GOING TO CONTINUE MY STUDIES IF EVERYTHING WENT WRONG?
(P/S: i get a matriculation offer in changlun, kedah )

all this (-)ve thoughts streaming into my mind, but suddenly i was stunned!

i reminded myself that i should take things (+)vely, because i know that ALLAH will not give His slave things that they can't handle.
& i believe that everything happen for a reason, a reason that only ALLAH knows.
His my creator, thus He knows what is the best for His slave.
Maybe, He wants me to take this as a challenge, to enlighten my spirit to pursue my greatest dream........

i also doesn't have to make a choice whether to go to university or matriculation, like most of my friends who have to decide which path they want to take.
i will not have to make the hard decision that they have to make,
definitely, this event has its own HIKMAH.......

HOPEFULLY, I WILL GET TO ACHIEVE MY AMBITION, TO BECOME A HUMBLE SERVANT OF ALLAH THAT CAN MAKE USE FULL OF MY POTENTIAL TO HELP PEOPLE,
INSYAALLAH...

becoming SOMEBODY

bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

agak lama tidak menjenguk menulis sebarang entri utk blog ini, jadi rasanya ada beberapa perkara yang terlintas di fikiran saya utk dikongsi dengan semua....



becoming SOMEBODY, menjadi seseorang merupakan antara satu perkara yang saya selalu terfikir belakangan ini, kerana apabila difikirkan kembali, rasanya terlalu sukar utk membina identiti diri.

sementelahan pula saya sering melabel diri saya sebagai seorang yg fleksibel, tetapi hakikatnya lebih kepada tidak kisah atau peduli......

ada juga yg menafsirkan kenyataan di atas lebih condong ke arah tidak mempunyai pendirian atau LALANG....



pun begitu, saya lebih suka utk mengambil sesuatu perkara itu ke arah yg p0sitif. mungkin membentuk identiti diri itu tidak sesukar mana, tetapi membentuk jati diri yg teguh itulah yg harus saya risaukan.....



dengan segala macam bentuk perkara yg membawa ke arah kelalaian, kadang kala membentuk jati diri itu bagai tidak termasuk dalam agenda diri....selalu juga diri bagai lemah dan tak daya utk menangkis segala dugaan dan cabaran, tetapi kekuatan hati itu mesti dicari!



Jadi, marilah kita menjadi seseorang yg prioritinya hanya menjadi seorang hamba ALLAH yg taat, insyaALLAH.........


sometimes, u need to see urself from other persons eyes, so that u can see ur weaknesses & fix it