beneath it all. . .

BISMILLAHIRRAHMANIRRAHIM...

salaam!

it's been ages since i last wrote on my blog!

well, my result for the first semester was very frustrating...letting down the hope of your loved ones was really breaking me to pieces...

when i look at the result all by myself, i didn't feel anything yet..... but the hardest part is yet to come : telling my parents the awful truth that i didn't get quite a good result...

the feeling this time around was a bit different as the result is quite crucial for the courses that i'm going to take, but things doesn't come out the way i wanted it to be...

at first, i called abah...

my tears already flowing down even before i got to speak to him, and i was too sad at that moment...its like the world has gone against me...

but abah as usual was very relaxed and even questioned me about the necessities of crying at that particular moment... he seems not to care about the result at all, just telling me to calm and relax.......

and surprisingly, only a single phone call is needed for me to be calm and relax... because i know in the end of the day, my family will be the one to catch me every single time i fall...

no matter how bad the fall is, no matter how far i have fall into, there will always be somebody who will help me, making it through the tough days ahead...

because i know they are the one who accepts me no matter what...

with this opportunity also, i would like to thank the persons beside my family members who help me through that day, my beloved roommates who consoles me in the time of my need...and pai as well, thanks guys...

now i have thousands of opportunity lies in front me, i just have to work a bit harder for this new semester so that i won't be missing anything!

~ALLAH GIVES ME THE TEST BECAUSE HE KNOWS I CAN HANDLE IT WELL, AND THERE'S DEFINITELY SOMETHING GOOD COMING IN THE FUTURE...IT'S JUST THAT I CAN'T SEE IT RIGHT NOW...~

INSYAALLAH, i'm going to try my very best to get what i want, because of HIM!

-519N1N9 0FF-

bismillahirrahmanirrahim...

salaam....

there's been a lot of things going on:

~mr taufiQ's conv0 [ congrats bro! ]

~muet.... [ r u ready? insyaALLAH! :) ]

~semester 2 coming up!!!

+ a few things that is quite confidential that i can't mention here [ sorry! ]

when i think back about all the stuff that has happens [regarding how big or small it is ], i should always be grateful with whatever i'm having right now...

i know that what i'm having right now maybe not as good as what other people are having but knowing that you have the persons that will always have your back no matter what is the most important thing in the whole wide world!

they maybe have some flaws here & there, but we should embrace people with what they are...especially our loved ones, because no matter how bad they are acting to you, in the end they are still your blood...

okay, enough with the emotional part..., now its time for me to get ready for a new semester that surely will bring a lot more surprises, challenges, & insyaALLAH successes along the way!

2 all my loved ones [ my dearly family, relatives & loyal friends ],

thanks for sticking with me throughout the journey,

even though we are far apart & rarely get the chance to meet up,

it doesn't mean you are not in my heart....

wish me luck for my muet & exam results!

519n1n9 0ff... :]

update...

salam....

bismillahirrahmanirrahim.

it has been ages since the last time i updating my blog[ i guess... ],

but anyway anyhow i've just fininshed my finals for the 1st sem...

YA ALLAH, the Q was very tough, [ m3 especially] but i think i've given my best

& i pray hard that INSYAALLAH i'll get a good [flying colour ] result,

AMIIINNN...

okay enough about the exams detail, now its time 2 prepare 4 my muet!

hahahahaha...muet is just around the corner and in fact i already finished the speaking test & i think that also went well.... so now i have to prepare for listening, reading and writing test [ nov 7 ], and hopefully get a band 6 [ a very, very high hope ],

wish me luck & pray for my success people...

before i end the entry for this time, i just want to say a lot of thanks to my family [ my parents especially] who have given me a tremendeous courage and support throughout the exam period...

ONLY ALLAH CAN REPAY ALL OF YOUR KINDNESS....

~ in love with them indefinitely ~

[ can't help but also to love: -lady gaga~paparazzi, -kings of leon~use somebody ]

signing off,

WASSALAM.

glad 2 be back!

salaam...
hallo people. it's really great 2 be back in my h0me.
near to kl, i miss everybody especially my family!!!

gosh, the feeling at home is really different, the comfort, security....only god knows.
i've been busy lately, thank god there's not much work from college so resting my body has been the main agenda [if you know what i mean, :) ]

i don't know why i didn't straight away write in blog when i got home...probably overwhelmed by the happiness of being home i guess....
oh yes, college life is HECTIC, but strangely i quite liking the hype where we have to rush to go to classes, doing experiment like every single week, & the much "anticipated" outdoor activities!
here in my college, even the outdoor activities has been decided 4 us....so we have accept it....but i think i'm quite lucky coz i got the ROWING CLUB people...
it's better than sewing, definitely...

so basically i've already spent a week at home, so we'll see what's going to happen next...

to all my friends, be happy in whatever you are doing.....

{i'm so crazy over lady gaga's~paparazzi, don't know why... :) }

selangor VS kelantan

assalamualaikum...

for this entry, i would like to share my experience watching the FA cup final.

~the game is coincidently played by the PR states
Kelantan:pas, Selangor:pkr
hahaha...i don't really care about this stuff, but there are several IRRESPONSIBLE
supporter who brings the flag of the political party[ so lame], so i can't help but
noticing this situation

~the game also brought in political leaders of different ideologies at the same time.
the newly appointed minister of youth & sport[ i don't remember his name exactly,
sorry ], khairy jamaluddin [ he only arrives during the half-time ], & anwar
anwar ibrahim was there too, he even sits near the minister[ the one he debates on
national tv ], what a little world after all, huh?
moral of the story, i think you guys are smart enough to know, right?

~so let's get back to the game!
both team showed a tremendous effort of a high fighting spirit in the game, but i can't
help but feel a little bit off about the referee because eventhough i support the
Selangor team, the ref seems a little harder on the Kelantan team.
i don't know, maybe it's just my feelings i guess. but alhamdulillah, Selangor won it in the end.

the pictures that i uploaded here consists a bit during the game & also after game party in shah alam as well...

that's all folks,
WASSALAM....

i'm g0ing away...

devastated, sad, ashamed is among the emotion that i felt when i realize that i didn't get the university offer.....

maybe, i hang my hope t00 high in the sky i guess....i even questioned myself:
CAN I SURVIVE THE MATRICULATION?
WHAT IF I FAIL?
WHAT IF CAN'T GET A GOOD RESULT?
HOW AM I GOING TO CONTINUE MY STUDIES IF EVERYTHING WENT WRONG?
(P/S: i get a matriculation offer in changlun, kedah )

all this (-)ve thoughts streaming into my mind, but suddenly i was stunned!

i reminded myself that i should take things (+)vely, because i know that ALLAH will not give His slave things that they can't handle.
& i believe that everything happen for a reason, a reason that only ALLAH knows.
His my creator, thus He knows what is the best for His slave.
Maybe, He wants me to take this as a challenge, to enlighten my spirit to pursue my greatest dream........

i also doesn't have to make a choice whether to go to university or matriculation, like most of my friends who have to decide which path they want to take.
i will not have to make the hard decision that they have to make,
definitely, this event has its own HIKMAH.......

HOPEFULLY, I WILL GET TO ACHIEVE MY AMBITION, TO BECOME A HUMBLE SERVANT OF ALLAH THAT CAN MAKE USE FULL OF MY POTENTIAL TO HELP PEOPLE,
INSYAALLAH...

env1ousness....

SALAM.........

envy?

memang aku cemburukan org lain...

mereka semua dapat apa yg mereka idamkan,

dari keputusan peperiksaan yg cemerlang,

hingga kepada keluarga yg punyai harta yg melimpah ruah,

sentiasa bersenang-senang & bersuka-sukaan,

sentiasa ada teman-teman di sisi.....

cemburu?

tidak lain & tidak bukan,

memang kerja setan!

Dan aku tahu,

ramai yg telah tumpas

dan aku tidak mahu jatuh dalam jeratnya...

aku pernah bertanya seorang sahabat yg telah lama aku kenali,

hidupnya hampir ku gambarkan dengan satu perkataan;

PERFECT!

tapi aku selalu lupa,

bahawa manusia itu tak pernah sempurna.

hidupnya juga penuh liku,

dan aku merasa dia dan aku tiada beza,

membuatkan rasa cemburuku ini sia-sia....

use you envy for something positive; let say for the sake of our studies.

but not until you make somebody falls apart!

the most important thing is: BE GRATEFUL & THANKFUL FOR WHAT YOU HAVE, YOU'LL NEVER KNOW WHEN YOU ARE GONNA NEED THEM

treat everybody nicely, 'cause they might be the one who helps you in the future....

becoming SOMEBODY

bismillahirrahmanirrahim....

agak lama tidak menjenguk menulis sebarang entri utk blog ini, jadi rasanya ada beberapa perkara yang terlintas di fikiran saya utk dikongsi dengan semua....



becoming SOMEBODY, menjadi seseorang merupakan antara satu perkara yang saya selalu terfikir belakangan ini, kerana apabila difikirkan kembali, rasanya terlalu sukar utk membina identiti diri.

sementelahan pula saya sering melabel diri saya sebagai seorang yg fleksibel, tetapi hakikatnya lebih kepada tidak kisah atau peduli......

ada juga yg menafsirkan kenyataan di atas lebih condong ke arah tidak mempunyai pendirian atau LALANG....



pun begitu, saya lebih suka utk mengambil sesuatu perkara itu ke arah yg p0sitif. mungkin membentuk identiti diri itu tidak sesukar mana, tetapi membentuk jati diri yg teguh itulah yg harus saya risaukan.....



dengan segala macam bentuk perkara yg membawa ke arah kelalaian, kadang kala membentuk jati diri itu bagai tidak termasuk dalam agenda diri....selalu juga diri bagai lemah dan tak daya utk menangkis segala dugaan dan cabaran, tetapi kekuatan hati itu mesti dicari!



Jadi, marilah kita menjadi seseorang yg prioritinya hanya menjadi seorang hamba ALLAH yg taat, insyaALLAH.........


sometimes, u need to see urself from other persons eyes, so that u can see ur weaknesses & fix it

happy+sad

assalamualaikum!

today is a day where the feelings is kind of mix of here n there, but alhamdulillah, so far so good.

i just earn my gaji, so now i am planning my expenses 4 the month. looks like i'm going to use them quite a lot, but as long i didn't give trouble my parents, insyaALLAH it will all be good.

speaking of my parents, my parents have been separating 4 a while....not because of some marriage problem [ALHAMDULILLAH], but my dad has been sent to china with a bunch of people to work on something regarding rubber industry n the potential [i think so]....
by the time i'm writing my entry my dad is on the plane, its almost midnight n he suppose to go by now.
i'm only hoping n praying that everything will be fine, insyaALLAH....

anyway, i'm just glad that ALLAH has given me the opp0rtunity to live today n hopefully tomorrow as well...

so people, i just want to remind u that whatever we do with our life, make sure we are doing the right thing because it is the best way to live our life....

SITI NUR HIDAYAH QUOTED:
never regret anything that already happen 'coz it will only wasting ur time, so its better to think about the future ' coz we still can do something for our future if we try hard

feels,rasa,...

salaam...
tak berniat utk bercakap byk psd entry kali ini, cuman nk berterima kasih pd semua yg telah memberi kesempatan utk hamba ALLAH yg lemah ini, walau result spm x segempak mana...

to the dearest persons in my life; i don't have to mention who you are, you guys know who you are....

whatever the path that we are going to take, i just want to wish all of you the best of luck!
be ready to take chances & open yourself to a new perspective of life.
LET'S FACE THE LIFE & EMBRACE IT WITH OPEN ARMS
hidayah/adie

my abah

kalau tak dapat result yg bagus pun, balik rumah macam biasa.
jangan nak buat drama mcm upsr dulu, apa pun keputusan kamu
abah tetap terima seadanya...

kata2 abah tu membuatkan aku sebak & terharu, memikirkan walau betapa buruk, teruk, atau hinanya kita di mata 0rang, ibu bapa kita tetap terima kita kerana kita darah daging mereka. kitalah harta mereka....

abah tiba2 bercakap sebegitu ketika di dapur petang tadi (11 mac) dan aku c0verline dengan pura2 haus & ambil air di fridge. aku cuma berkata pada abah, thank you, walhal aku tgh tahan air mata yg nk jatuh...

abah sebenarnya nk hantar aku ke sek0lah untuk ambil result, tapi macam biasa aku yg k0n0nnya baik menolak.mujur abah x berkeras nak ikut....
memang habit aku agaknya, masa pmr pun aku tak bagi abah ikut.
entahlah, aku lebih senang pergi sendiri....
aku sebenarnya takut kalau result aku tak el0k...
tapi s00ner 0r later abah akan tau jugak, tapi aku tetap aku....
biarlah...

aku cuma mampu berd0a yg m0ga2 keputusan aku yg akan keluar 10 jam lagi ni tak akan mengecewakan abah & mummy.......

YA ALLAH, KAU bantulah hambamu yg lemah dan serba kekurangan ini............

malas n laziness........

salaam.......sindrom malas menjadi sebab untuk tidak m'update blog ini.

a lot of things happen ar0und me lately,it makes me t0 p0nder & reflect myself in a way 0r another.....

situati0n ab0ut my j0b recently,it's like a hate-l0ve relati0nship. why?
because i l0ve t0 work with my new friends, & yes all of them are older than me.....
& even we are differ in many things,but i treasure all the m0ment that i get.....

but like every things in this w0rld, my j0b has its 0wn d0wnside........
it can be a little tiny of pressure,but alhamdulillah i've been able t0 c0pe....

h0pefully my experience will help me t0 face the challenges that i may enc0unter in the future............very cliche huh?!
it's 0k.

damn bzzzz......

salaam........
sangat sibuk n penat sampai susah gilerr nk 0n9!
EVENTS2 YG BERLAKU THIS WEEk:

~pergi driving less0n yg 1st & the experience is quite bad, i guess......kerana sgt2 blur.
~ade ceramah tp x sedia langsung,pen satu p0n x bawak & lepas tu thank god sume OK!
alhamdulillah

~daddy ku demam,aku la jd nurse suku masa c0z kne keje.huhuuuu.....teruk gak my dad demam,nasib la x masuk h0spital.
alhamdulillah

~br0ther ku yg sgt bz dgn assignment, dye bukak utube 4 his w0rk.
~adik yg c0ncern begitu baik bertanye"tgk pe tu?",b0le plak my br0 ckp"tgh teng0k sp0ngeb0b ni".
~walhal dye tgh tng0k diz 0ne pr0f berucap,da p0int is aku tau la its a lecture tapi aku tanye pasal ape.sab0 j0 la.....

tima kasih!

my experience?!

salaam...
suka utk saya khabarkn di sini bahawa cuti yg agak panjang ini m'buatkn 0tak slightly krg efisyen. tp byk betul pengalaman baru yg b0le la dik0ngsi bersama....yg baik 2 ambik la byk2,tp yg x el0k 2 juz leave it here,k

pd mula2 cuti dulu begitu byk skali planning2 yg bajetnyer mantap, tp agak hampeh hasilnya but it's 0k c0z skarang bru la nmpk hasil sket,ALHAMDULILLAH...
the key here is we have t0 be realistic with 0ur plan,jgn jd seperti ku(s0b3x) kerana apa...kerana berhajat k0nonnya nk ambil driving less0ns right away lepas spm,tp syg musalmah la jadinya c0z 0ngk0s nya bak kata 0rg india"illek"

tp ape2 p0n kite msti ade back up plan.....macam nak cari kerja,mula2 2 punye la k0nfiden yg x brape k0nfiden akan dpt kerja kat great eastern,skali x dpt daa....mati kutu kejap ana,fikir2 why n0t kerja kat satu tempat yg bernama KUM0N. make thel0ng st0ry sh0rt,hamba ALLAH nakal n sdikit setan p0n dpt keje kat situ,YAY!
0opps,ALHAMDULILLAH....hihihi,kan da ckp td nakal +setan sket.....

disaat ku menulis bl0g berbahasa melayu yg penuh kek0k ini,team fav0uriteku masih x dpt sc0re g0l. MU vs WEST HAM,aku ambil kesempatan utk tulis s0mething
terinspirasi dari membe2 yg da ade bl0g sendiri yg aku fikir sgt established klu nk c0mpare dgn aku yg baru je blaja2 membl0gkn diri....
jap lagi mesti abgku akn p0t0ng line aku utk 0n9 lps game abis,jd x ble bebel lame2...

klu ade yg bace n visit ,thanx a l0t & majula bl0gging utk agama ,bangsa, dan negara!

weird0 n gr0ssing stuff!

assalamuaalikum,

the t0pic that i want t0 say here may t0uch pe0ple fr0m different races but i just want t0 highlight the distructi0n that is happening within 0ur c0untry.s0 let me remind anyb0dy wh0 have narr0w-minded kind of thinking n0t t0 read my th0ughts...

recently i've been t0 mid valley with my family & guess what? there's an .......... c0uple kissing lips t0 lips in the public & they l00king pr0ud d0ing it. at that exact m0ment i was quite sh0ck to see 0ur bel0ved malaysian acting s0 rudely....eventh0ugh they were n0t a muslim, but what i want t0 stress here is where is 0ur dignity & pride as easterners that we have practice all this while!
EXCUSE ME PE0PLE, THIS IS MALAYSIA & IT ISN'T UNITED STATES!!!

my advice t0 all 0f y0u 0ut there,keep all the s0-called r0mantic stuff within y0ur private terit0ries.
even y0u have been married please sh0w s0me respect t0 0ther pe0ple ar0und y0u,especially the little 0nes...

p/s:dear readers,

if y0u have anything 0n y0ur mind regarding this matter,y0ur feedback is M0ST WELC0ME!

[d0 c0rrect my grammar if there's any err0r in this article... :) ]

ASSALAMUALAIKUM...

i just want t0 say i'm glad t0 have my 0wn bl0g & i wish we can use it f0r best purp0ses in 0ur life & f0r the rest 0f the humanity,INSYAALLAH.